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Sep. 14th, 2011

Cryign on the inside


So yeah it has been a rough week. But What can I say I have been through worse. So yeah feeling kind of low right now. Because i cant help the way i think some times and it just eneds up getting me into trouble or making me feel like an ass for the rest of the night. But i have been working on controlling this and trying to make it better. Just sometimes things set me off or i get a little confused or cant really think clearly. But i have been getting better at it. there are just a few subjects i am still working on to get better. And before you ask I am not in therapy and i am not taking anything for them because therapy wasnt really helping me. Because it was basically go in and talk confide things and they have everything be Bottled up each week. But i guess all i can do is push forward. Although i have been trying to reach my dream of being an egyptologist, I have been trying to work on my essay to get in to college over in Egypt. I Am not really sure abou that whole thing either.

On to some happier notes.
I finally got myself a new book It is called "The Daughetrs of Isis" which is really helping alot. since my essay is on the live of women in ancient Egypt and the Armana period. But lets just hope it goes well. Also i have been working at dollar tree for over a year and a half now which is awesome.

But i must get going to get done what i have to get done. Talk to you all later


Aug. 19th, 2011

Anubis by moonlight

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A Cry to Anubis.
I look to the sky.
Tears fall down my face. 
Blood flows constantly like a never ending race.
Do i really wanna die?
When will I?

Tell me do you believe in gods?
Or do you believe in life or death?
Tell me What do you believe in.

Anubis, God of Death,
I've breathed my last breath.
My soul it summons thee.
Come set me free.

Mar. 8th, 2010

Number 90


I finally passed a test in my math class today. and i give thanks to My wonderful frined who puts up with me to help me (Raine) And i say thank you to virgo who cheers me on as well and tries to help when she can.

Also My birthday was Saturday. I am now 22. It was awesome. Went to see Alice in Wonderland. (which totally rocked) And then went out to eat. and got to eat a Cake as well (Love Best creme Frosting) (Thank you again Raine) Also got new headphones. Virgo Got me some awesome candy and stuff i needed. and My dad got me a cake as well as flowers and a balloon.

Have to head out i will try updating again later but i have to get some new books to read and start heading home. Hopefully i will be home before the rain hits

Jan. 26th, 2010

Anubis by moonlight

A little update..

Well it has been a week that is all i can say.

Okay i really am updating about a few things.

1. My grandmother is okay  and at home.
2.  I am going to be hopefully going to Night School and getting my high school diploma.
3. Im not sure if i am getting my car. (my grandfather might be getting his back)
4. Work has been giving me good Hours. ((Always calling me in))

Other then that not a lot has been happening. I will hopefully be updating more soon.
So i hope everyone has a good nigth and sleeps well.

Jan. 13th, 2010

Anubis by moonlight

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Read more...Collapse )this is my Tattoo is it awesome. Oh and i has  car now Heehee  well i have to get going bye

Dec. 29th, 2009

Anubis by moonlight

A good Christmas

Well I have had a awesome christman and i am so glad i have such good freinds behind me. I hope you guys realy liked your gifts. I loved mine. But i have to run i got to go get food and stuff will update more later. ~Lynn

Nov. 16th, 2009

Number 90

The First couple days of work.....

So yes I have a job and i really like it. So i will give you a little back story on my first 3 days i have been working.

I started On the 9th Which was mainly just paper work and getting to know the store and a few of my co-workers. Which went pretty well. I was there from 2-7 and it went really awesome. my first task was to clean up the gift bags that were all over the floor and shelves and after that i was sent to boy's toys. which was fun. then i was taught how to ring people up and bag their products. And after that it was just doing alot of cleaning and walking around the store. Then I went home and didn't work again till Saturday. I was called it but that is the next story.

Next day the 14th- I was called in to work this day cause one of the girls had not come in to work. And it did happen just as it was told in Virgo's Journal but I did a lot more calling before i called Raine. I even tried to call my brothers mother. And Yes my Dad did offer for the cab fare but it would have taken almost all of my check to pay him then rent he wants and payback the cab fare. Which i didn't want to do cause i need to give raine Gass money and buy mins for my phone and every thing else that i need for hyigine and daily life. Which was why i called Raine to ask her and yess She is awesome for coming to get me that day (Big Hugs and everything else for Raine) So yeah when i got there i was put on cleaning duty, making sure the store is presentable. And after like 20 mins of cleaning i was called up to do register for a littlw while and i was there fro the rest of my shift. And then i went home.

Then i went i on the 15th Yesterday. I was only on register and We had to do the Toys For Tots Which was fun. It started off really slow when i was there but it picked up really fast and It almost didn't ened until i had to leave at 5 To go get backl to the mall to give Raine back her Car. But i did like almost 1,500.00 For my daily sales and it was awesome. one woman who cam through my line bought a hundred dollars worth of stuff. Any Way it was a really cool day and i had fun.

I have to get going and look up some stuff. Talk to everyone later ~ Lynn

Nov. 5th, 2009

Anubis by moonlight


Well it has finally happened. I HAZ A JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (yes i know i spelled it wrong i was being funny.)
Anyway I start on monday at the family dollar in orono So wish me luck people. When i find Insert funny cat pic >>>>>

Oct. 15th, 2009

Walking to the gates


Hey it's me....or at least i think it's me lol just kidding, I am doing alright a little tired but i am good. I am still searching for a job and i am still living with my dada. (He has gotten a lot better). I also got a Tattoo done it is an Ankh in Puroke and blues.
I am alos fighting with DHHS cause they took away my food stamps which are the only way i can get food other then printing off Domino's Cheesey Bread coupons Which is tasty but I miss real food sometimes.
I am hoping that something will come up for a job soon so i can start help paying the rent and get a real phone and pay off the debts i owe to a few places.
But i have good feelign and good vibes and i am in a pretty good mood. BUt i have to get back to job hunting and getting stuff done. So i hope every one is doning well and happy and wishing good vibes to Zepher who is Sick. Talk to you all Later

Aug. 26th, 2009

Anubis by moonlight

Wish me luck. =^_^=

Hey  everyone hope you all are doing well. 

If you are wondering about the title well.....As some of you know i have been doing a massive Job serch to try and get my self back into the working world cause frankly I found out i love to work.  So any way i have applied to about a thousand places and done some many online apps. I got a e-mail today from a site called Sittercity.com which was shown to me by Virgo and her mom (Thank you guys you both rock)  and it said that there was a family that wanted to interveiw me about being their nanny..Which i know i am no Mary Poppins but i love to work with children. So yeah they told me that they need a nanny for their two kids. 1 boy and 1 girl and the job pays like either $375-$475 a week and they also travel with so i would get to travel with them and they  would  pay for the travel expense for the me if they hire me. which they said they would get a hold of me at somepoint this weekend to tell me what their desicion is. so that is what the title is about....
Now as for normal life. I graduated from Job Corps with all honors and everything. I am living with my father for right now and he is getting so much better he has really done a lot for me in these past few months i have been living with him. He is letting mke stay there for free so that is cool. and thanks to everyones else who has been keeping me sane and on task (Virgo and Raine.....Tribe mates for the Win guys). Well i really have to get going to get soem more stuff done today. Hope eberyone has a good day and hey feel free to e-mail me my e-mail is Lotusjackal@gmail.com. Well hope everyone has a good day. And hopefully i will be updating more.

~Lynn ((Aka Carrie))

Mar. 5th, 2009

Anubis by moonlight

....I live

Hey everyone. I am still alive and kicking butt. Well I am almost finished here a job corps and i can't wait to get out and have some of my freedom back. But also it is the day before my 21st birthday.

 Also in good news my mother is moving back to Maine and she will be up sometime this weekend so i am very happy about that. I also am getting my license soon the driving teacher sent in for my road test.

I also want to say Hi and hug all of you that i haven't seen or talked to in a while. I hope you guys are doing well.

Well i must get going it is almost time to settle down and get ready to hit the hay so i can be up cheery and bright eyed in the morning.

 So have a good night and don't forget (If you have ever watched Bill and Ted you will get this) "Be Excellent to each other. Party on Dudes"

Jan. 2nd, 2009

Anubis by moonlight

Still Down South with no snow...I miss it.

I am still in Tucson AZ.  IT has been really fun here. I enjoyed seeing my mom and my cats. My mom is taking me to play bingo tonight and hopefully i will win some money. I can't wait to see you guys again up in maine. I have Had a really good time down here. I went to the BIoSphere 2 and got a tour and saw a few things that people don't usally get to see. My uncle's Father-in-law is an engineer there. I also got to see a casino and i got to the Tucson Mall. Which is huge it still has a pretzel time and a suncoast.  And one of the best things i got for christmas down here was my Bill and Ted movies and found out that there might be a third. . I bought peoples gifts down here and i hope they like them...
   And Raine and Virgo..Looking forward to meeting up with you guys and having our party. I hope you like the gifts i got you guys.
  I Also want to say i hope every one had a good Holiday and everything. I will see you all soon.

     I am flying back in on sunday and i will call people when i get back and stuff.

   Have a good night and i will talk to you guys later. if you need me call my cell and everything.

Dec. 19th, 2008

Anubis by moonlight

I made it.

I made to Arizona and i am very tired and happy. But i am glad that i can see my mom and my kitties they are so cute and i have pictures to show people when i get back. Well i must get going and  do some oter stuff like search for the lost dutchmans treasure. Have a good day and i hope everyone has a good holiday.

Dec. 18th, 2008

Anubis by moonlight

Hey Everyone.

Just wanted to say hi to everyone Before i head down to Arizona for X-mas break. I can't wait but i am going to miss you all while i am gone. But i hope eveyone has a good X-mas and i will update when i get there to let everyone know i got there alive. See you all later. ~Carrie

Nov. 2nd, 2008

Number 90

Hey to all ...and a little update

Hey guys long time no update, Well i am still at job corps which is a living hell. I am going to fly down to Arizona soon to see my mom for christmas it is going to be awsome. I was originally going down to boston to fly out of there but i guess my mom won some money playing bingo and she had enough to fly me straight out of bangor. So the boston trip is going to happen in March on my birthday. I have never been to boston. Any way. I am almost done with culinary arts if i can just pass the written tests and the the one hands on test. I also have gotten my GED and i still need my two criedits for HSD but i am working on them. I hope everyone is alright i miss you all.  I also want to send out a thank you to all those who have supported me throught out everything, THANK YOU AND YOU ROCK. I would have never gotten anywhere with out you there behind me pushing me in the right direction. May Isis smile upon you. Have a good day and i might update more later. Also a little side note i never put in to my journals. When i was doing the Extreme Home Make Over. I got a call while i was eating in the cafe. It was from my Little brother Danny. I hadn't seen him in like 7 years and then while i was at the work site they came and saw me and his litle brother Kyle did the cutest thing every he looked at me and asked me " can i be your little brother too?" It was so cute. Any way i must get going my laundry is alomost done and i can't leave it in the machince or i'll get in trouble. Talk to you  all later. ~Carrie King

Jun. 21st, 2008

Anubis by moonlight

Thank ALL The Egyptian gods and goddess

I went on a quest today and entered a Guitar Hero Tourtument . It went well with all the other people who all did well I failed though But  I also entered a drawing for the game Rock Band and for a while i just hung around watching people play the tourument and eat hot dogs and just have fun . Then i went out to get lunch and half way to getting my lunch i got a phone call and it was Bill And he said that out of all the names that were in the drawing for it mine got pulled and i was the only Yellow ticket in the box IT ROCKS!!!!!! Well that is my quick update i must get going and play the game bye all.

Jun. 7th, 2008

Number 90

I am still alive.....I think.. =^_^=

Hey guys- long time no update, Right?
Well I still live and I am still in Job Corps which is not so bad. I am almost done with culinary arts and will hopefully move on to business when I am done with that.
I am not looking forward to working the Seinor Little Leauge World Series -/_\-.
But I am a teachers assiant in my class which means I can get out of it if I feel like it, lol.
But I am going to work it because it is the right thing to do to help my instructor.
On another note not alot has been happening, went to my gramothers grave over Memeorial Day weekend. I got to get away from the center and stuff like that. Thank you for the day Raine it was awesome even though we got lost up there. I have bad navigation skills, (no kidding -_-;;... ~Raine) but the day was really fun all the things we did and we planted flowers on her grandmothers grave as well as mine.
I have my GED and I am working on getting my HSD soon. I only need two more credits.
Other then that life has been good, other then the fact I really miss my mom who is Arizona and I haven't seen her in a year and 2 months.
Well I must go back and do stuff I hope you all doing well. Have a good day

(** Grammer checked by Raine! :3 )

Oct. 18th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

juts a small update.

Well for the last six days i have had sever stomach pains and nasuea. I decied tuseday to go to the hospital cause i was in so much pain i was crying but that was after i went to my fathers to sleep and then to my counselers, And I am truly grateful to Jess. Who took me to the hospital the first day and stayed with me Even thought she did not have to. But it turned from a 2 hour wait to a 4 hour wait. In the time they gave me vics. ((sorry i don't know how to spell the pain med)) any way i really didn't feel up to waiting 4 hours and went back to center after promising i would call if it got worse. The next morning Weds is the culinary arts Salem incentive trip and i wasn't feeling bad at all i had taken Tylenol that morning and it helped. So i took some with me incase something happened. And on the ride back i stared to have the stomach pains again, So i called Jess just to let her know i was going to the hospital as soon as i got back. which didn't happen cause Center refused to take me to the hospital or let me call an ambulance ((Everytime i tried the phone kept getting disconnected)) So i took more Tylenol and went to bed. when i got up that morning i could barely move and i got the same hassle from Center. Cause I didn't go through wellness Which would have took up to an hour cause i would have to wait for the new kids to get checked up and wait for the kids who need meds. So i called Jess again to let her know i was going to take a bus to the hospital cause center would not give me a ride or call an ambulance. So she asked me if i wanted her or Catti to give me a ride and i said yes, i really hated to ask her because she has her own worries and cares to worry about. But i am glad i have a friend like her *hugs for Jess* Well the leads up to Today. I went to St. Josephs Hospital and got check and it only took about 20 mins for me to get in. I found out the i have acid Reflux and my colon is backed up with crap thats why i had the pains. So i am taken to medications now. I will start taken them tomorrow morning so i can get on a routine. ~So a big thank you to Jess for all her help in this and a big hugs as well~ Well i am heading to bed. Good night to all and I hope your days have been well or will get batter. ^_\\


Sep. 16th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

(no subject)

Hey guys long time no update huh. Well things here at job corp are really going well. I have passed my first level and i am working on getting my last level done. I am also going to get my high school diploma. I got my GED awhile ago. So yeah in recent news Our culinary arts program has been working with Extreme Makeover Home Edition. And it has been really cool. Well must get going and hang out with some friends Hope you are all doing well. Got to Go *hugs to all* ~C

Jul. 5th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

(no subject)

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
It makes me think i guess do i really know who i am do people really know the real me i mean a few people know the real me but alot of people don't. i guess it just gets me thinking is all. Okay now on the brighter side to things is that i might have a job at staples soon. i just have to wait for them to get back to me is all. I alos have gotten my GED hopefully haven't gotten a chance to call the learning center to find out yet. I miss all of you guys. i don't have anything to do this week or the next week if anyone wants to get together give me a call or something E-mail me My new e-mail is Rosejackal@yahoo.com. Night guys have a good week and stuff. *hugs to everyone* ^_\\

Apr. 16th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

I live.......i guess

Hey everyone i am still alive...... I miss all of you i do.... i just hope no one has forgotten me.......

I am doing fine here though.. I miss all of you Jessie, Richard, Jillian and everyone...To tired to type all the names.. Well i guess i got to go.... Hey if you ever want to get a hold of me The number is 990-3000 just ask for wing 6 and for carrie king and they will come get me.....You can call if you want... i would love to her from someone...I hope eveyone is warm and safe tonight i know it is going to be a bad storm from what i have heard...Well i got to go *hugs to all* I really do miss you Call sometimes.. =^_^= ^_\\

Apr. 11th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

Hey all

Hey it is me. I am updating again.
Well i hope everyone is well. Everything is cool here and i have to wait 60 days till i can start culianry arts. I will say this though the food here is good. lol I can't wait to see you guys i miss you all. So yeah i guess i have to go cause i have a time limit and stuff but hey i will talk to you all later *HUGS TO EVERYONE*

Apr. 9th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

Very Stressed and tired

Hey guys i am here at job corp. And it is going okay i guess but i am sure it is just jitters and me beoing me. I miss you all alot and can't wait to see you this weekend when i get a chance. Well must go i have a meeting to go to *bugs to all* Have a good week> I can get onb to aim and livejournal so you will be hearing from me.

Mar. 27th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

Alot to think about.

To all those who have gotten annoyed with me or mad at me Im sorry for what ever i did. So I guess i have alot to think about but don't worry it is all just me and nobody elses issue. everyone else has their own stress. I also have to think about all the thing i have done to my loved ones. i mean i feel so bad that i had to come back and live with my mother and tj. i know job corp would be good for me but i am having second thoughts about it. But hey it's only a thought that needs to be locked away to be forgotten or at least try to anyway. Well i guess i really don't know what else to say i mean i can say Yay for Tmnt which came out last friday. and for the books i bought a while ago which were awsome i got three yaoi novels and the gravitaion novels as well. And so everyone have a good nigth and hopefully i will be able to get on and talk to you guys later. *hugs To everyone* this is not directed towards anyone i just really needed some where to put this thinking. I mean i can't talk to my mother at all it would only provide stress for her even more.

Mar. 25th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

hey everyone.

So yeah as you all know i was kicked out by my grandfather and i am living with my mother temporarely. And in about two to three weeks i am going to be going to job corp for a number of reasons. ! I am going to have a place to stay when my mum leaves. 2. the can help me get my diploma and my GED. 3. they help me learn a trade and they help me find a job and all that good stuff and they kinda pay me to go as well. I mean the living allowence is all. So i figured i would let everyone know that i sill live and what is going on. I am kinda looking forward to job corp but i still have my doubts but hey i can get over tem right =^_^=. Well i guess i got to go and do some stuff for my mum. To all my friends. Hey i will maybe on aim and i look forward to talking to you guys I miss you all *hugs to everyone* Bye for now i will update more later ^_\\

Mar. 17th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

(no subject)

Got this from jessie who got it form moria. Oh Yeah after this weekend i will be on the internet and stuff as much as i can Senice i have to move back in with my mum. *hugs to everyone* have a good day and stay warm.

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Mar. 14th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

So yeah..........

so this week has been kinda sucky. I went home and found out my grandfather wants me to move out so he can fix the house and move sooner even though he told me that i had till i after school.  So after this weekend i am going to be staying with my mother. if you need me the number is 991-4244. I guess thats all really nuthing more to say. If anyone wants to do anything i am free.   Anyway Have a good night guys and i will hopefull see you guys online when i can get on *hugs to all*

Mar. 6th, 2007

Anubis by moonlight

Good day , Good B-day

So yeah im 19 now Yay! The day has been really good. And plus jessie got her liscence back today. Yay Jessie.  look under the lj cut it is something for you. and a few things for my self. =^_^= and to every one else Have a good night and stay warm ^_\\ 

well like i said have a good night  and don't forget to eat your ramen lol Just kidding everyone Goodnight to all my friends.

Mar. 2nd, 2007

Anubis by moonlight


Well we got more snow today and i am still at my mums due to it but i am going to be in glenburn tomorrow.  Well night night to everyone if you need me give my mums cell phone a call and i will awnser it  *hugs to everyone* i will see you all at some point and to all college people Enjoy your Spring Break  *waves* Talk to you all later =^_^= ^_\\ //-_-\\  //_^

well i hope you enjoy

Mar. 1st, 2007

Anubis by moonlight


here is some random naruto stuff i found on the computer i still have more will update later i am still at my mothers house if any one needs me =^_^=


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